the life of tania

gossip girl

2009-06-04T01:25:00.000-07:00

omg iv just realised how much gossip goes on!!! too much imo!!! i personally don't really care about things unless theyr related to me or my closest friends directly or my family, and i find it easier not to know all this stuff, particularly cuz at least half is crap or at least exaggerated crap. i can't believe people completely believe stuff they hear about people, not to mention people bitching and talking about other people all the time... seems a bit lifeless sometimes, esp considering we aren't celebrities. i mean, yes, i think its ok to do it once in a while, to let off steam, but only really appropriate if everyone you're saying it to actually knows the person personally. and i think it's ok if you're close friends with the person you're currently finding annoying and you're saying stuff about their annoyingness to other close friends of the friend and yourself. otherwise, i think people should mind their own business and try not to be as nosy and care so much about other people's lives. it seems a bit sad.
random ranting. don't take it personally, i'm just talking about the general public.
i prefer talking to the dudes sometimes. the dudes that i talk about academic stuff to of course, as impersonal and yet helpful and interesting.
and about myself personally, not just in the general case like above, in case you didnt know, im a very private person. i am a person who passionately loves her friends and family, but doesnt really spread this around to everyone, thats just who i am, so i think if you don't really know me as well as them, then you prob don't know me that amazingly well. i'm hard to get/read.
but yeah, i always remember this poster on a wall at cobham (cuz i liked the saying and think its appropriate):

big minds discuss ideas
medium minds discuss events
small minds discuss people.

love forever,

~tania

pic of bronx mowgli wentz!!!

2009-05-13T05:18:00.000-07:00

ash posted this.

her and pete didn't sell pics of bronx to paparazzi etc cuz didn't like it

aww kind of hard to see him properly though. looks like he has blonde hair like ash...

ash wrote "I present you my little man and his adorable cheeks!"

my life is changing so quickly

2009-05-13T04:42:00.000-07:00

i feel that my life is changing so quickly nowadays, esp cuz it's year 13 and all...
there are some who are obsessed with uni and their future jobs etc...
there are some who i've grown apart from...
there are some who are so adult now...
it's really exciting, but it's also quite depressing in a way, considering i don't like changes very much.
10 things to note:

thank goodness i'm not as adult as some my age are atm, cuz i don't want to deal with those problems yet
i'm so glad that i've realised certain things about life before i have to experience the real world
i absolutely love all my classes (still).
some teachers think we have a close relationship, which is quite strange, but also quite cool. i always seem to get on better with teachers/adults and people younger than me way better than with people my age.
year13 is very hard, esp trying to do all the hw everyday for 6 subjects. however, year13 is fun, integrated, love and togetherness, and i feel like i learn a lot of different things everyday and it's so cool!!!
i keep realising how insignificant i am in this world, which is depressing. you can make an allusion here to fight club, i just can't be stuffed writing it down.
i personally am trying not to think about the scary prospect of uni, jobs etc.
i hope i've changed for the better from last year and previous years.
i can't believe i am legally an adult in one and a half months...
i still have the same baby names for my future babies (i so hope girl, girl, boy in that order).

Ashlee Jenna

Gemma Bree

Hunter Seth

*Abigail (Abbey) Heather

(Jennifer)

*Toby Connor

*Jesse Ryan

(Chase)

oooh!

2009-02-11T23:54:00.001-08:00

i got 100E credits overall officially in level2! i got 3 e and 1m for bio externals. the review came back and marker had counted num of a, m and e qs i got right, wrongly

confusion

2009-02-11T23:45:00.000-08:00

u kno, i dunno y so many ppl r so obsessed about being 'gifted/genius/smart'. only some r and only specialists can tell if u r and teachers too, and if they dont think that about u then u arent. no point complaining and saying u actually r. u dont hav to b to b successful and get good results. and these 'gifted' ppl can b a lot stupid than the ordinary person a lot of the time newayz and their giftedness leads them to get worse results too

classes 2009

2009-02-06T17:51:00.001-08:00

my classes: (in order from option a through to option f)

13BIO (i hope i get mrs porter)
13MSX (i wonder whos gonna teach us...)
13PHX (i think mrs calder will teach us. haha i thought it was gonna b mr leigh again)
13CHX (mr wright i think?)
13MCX (who teaches it?)
13ENX (ms krohn, same teacher as vicki's eng and form class. not good considering shel prob find out wer sis and vicki's really good at eng..)

i think im actually...

2009-01-31T23:49:00.001-08:00

intj... took more tests and got intj more... and seems more me

some of many stuff i dislike

2009-01-31T22:47:00.000-08:00

when ppl compare me to ppl i really dont wanna b lyk at all
when ppl don't replyto qs
when ppl don't understand the underlying meaning
when ppl think the other person is stupid when in actual fact they themselves don't understand the first person making them the actual stupid one
when ppl discriminate others
when ppl act one way to get something/to get the public to get a better opinion of the person, when really they actually r just forming an image of themselves for their benefit
when ppl don't get u
when ppl lie for their own benefit
when ppl label u
when ppl don't c past the obvious

worried

2009-01-31T18:02:00.000-08:00

haha ok so last night i had this dream, which scared me so much when i was dreaming it. i got a phone call from this random old lady from burnside asking if i think i shud get into 13enx cuz my results were the 3rd lowest or something... and she thought i shudnt get into it and not into the accelerated maths classes too cuz didnt believe my results and was v surprised at the 'good' results i got in westpac tests...
i think it's a mixture of mr r ringing me yesterday about physics results and how i am worrying atm about getting into the accelerated classes, mostly worried about getting into the english accelerated one...

blah

2009-01-26T20:07:00.000-08:00

bored... tho jens blog was vvvv interesting... haha that was punny! did nothing today... tho i found out all the twilight series books apart from twilight r not in nz until feb!!!

my personality. does it sound lyk me? comment

2009-01-24T23:05:00.000-08:00

ISTJ, Examiner, Protector
Personality Type
ISTJ - The "Examiner"
Temperament: SJ (Protector)
Primary Function: Introverted Sensing
Population: 12% (15.5% male, 8.5% female)
Extraverted 5%
Introverted 95%

Sensing 58%
Intuition 42%

Thinking 89%
Feeling 11%

Judging 84%
Perceiving 16%

ISTJs are often called inspectors. They have a keen sense of right and wrong, especially in their area of interest and/or responsibility. They are noted for devotion to duty. Punctuality is a watchword of the ISTJ. The secretary, clerk, or business(wo)man by whom others set their clocks is likely to be an ISTJ.
As do other Introverted Thinkers, ISTJs often give the initial impression of being aloof and perhaps somewhat cold. Effusive expression of emotional warmth is not something that ISTJs do without considerable energy loss.
ISTJs are most at home with "just the facts, Ma'am." They seem to perform at highest efficiency when employing a step-by-step approach. Once a new procedure has proven itself (i.e., has been shown "to work,") the ISTJ can be depended upon to carry it through, even at the expense of their own health.
ISTJs are easily frustrated by the inconsistencies of others, especially when the second parties don't keep their commitments. But they usually keep their feelings to themselves unless they are asked. And when asked, they don't mince words. Truth wins out over tact. The grim determination of the ISTJ vindicates itself in officiation of sports events, judiciary functions, or an other situation which requires making tough calls and sticking to them.
His SJ orientation draws the ISTJ into the service of established institutions. Home, social clubs, government, schools, the military, churches -- these are the bastions of the SJ. "We've always done it this way" is often reason enough for many ISTJs. Threats to time-honored traditions or established organizations (e.g., a "run" on the bank) are the undoing of SJs, and are to be fought at all costs.

The Duty Fulfiller
As an ISTJ, your primary mode of living is focused internally, where you take things in via your five senses in a literal, concrete fashion. Your secondary mode is external, where you deal with things rationally and logically.
ISTJs are quiet and reserved individuals who are interested in security and peaceful living. They have a strongly-felt internal sense of duty, which lends them a serious air and the motivation to follow through on tasks. Organized and methodical in their approach, they can generally succeed at any task which they undertake.
ISTJs are very loyal, faithful, and dependable. They place great importance on honesty and integrity. They are "good citizens" who can be depended on to do the right thing for their families and communities. While they generally take things very seriously, they also usually have an offbeat sense of humor and can be a lot of fun - especially at family or work-related gatherings.
ISTJs tend to believe in laws and traditions, and expect the same from others. They're not comfortable with breaking laws or going against the rules. If they are able to see a good reason for stepping outside of the established mode of doing things, the ISTJ will support that effort. However, ISTJs more often tend to believe that things should be done according to procedures and plans. If an ISTJ has not developed their Intuitive side sufficiently, they may become overly obsessed with structure, and insist on doing everything "by the book".
The ISTJ is extremely dependable on following through with things which he or she has promised. For this reason, they sometimes get more and more work piled on them. Because the ISTJ has such a strong sense of duty, they may have a difficult time saying "no" when they are given more work than they can reasonably handle. For this reason, the ISTJ often works long hours, and may be unwittingly taken advantage of.
The ISTJ will work for long periods of time and put tremendous amounts of energy into doing any task which they see as important to fulfilling a goal. However, they will resist putting energy into things which don't make sense to them, or for which they can't see a practical application. They prefer to work alone, but work well in teams when the situation demands it. They like to be accountable for their actions, and enjoy being in positions of authority. The ISTJ has little use for theory or abstract thinking, unless the practical application is clear.
ISTJs have tremendous respect for facts. They hold a tremendous store of facts within themselves, which they have gathered through their Sensing preference. They may have difficulty understanding a theory or idea which is different from their own perspective. However, if they are shown the importance or relevance of the idea to someone who they respect or care about, the idea becomes a fact, which the ISTJ will internalize and support. Once the ISTJ supports a cause or idea, he or she will stop at no lengths to ensure that they are doing their duty of giving support where support is needed.
The ISTJ is not naturally in tune with their own feelings and the feelings of others. They may have difficulty picking up on emotional needs immediately, as they are presented. Being perfectionists themselves, they have a tendency to take other people's efforts for granted, like they take their own efforts for granted. They need to remember to pat people on the back once in a while.
ISTJs are likely to be uncomfortable expressing affection and emotion to others. However, their strong sense of duty and the ability to see what needs to be done in any situation usually allows them to overcome their natural reservations, and they are usually quite supporting and caring individuals with the people that they love. Once the ISTJ realizes the emotional needs of those who are close to them, they put forth effort to meet those needs.
The ISTJ is extremely faithful and loyal. Traditional and family-minded, they will put forth great amounts of effort at making their homes and families running smoothly. They are responsible parents, taking their parenting roles seriously. They are usually good and generous providers to their families. They care deeply about those close to them, although they usually are not comfortable with expressing their love. The ISTJ is likely to express their affection through actions, rather than through words.
ISTJs have an excellent ability to take any task and define it, organize it, plan it, and implement it through to completion. They are very hard workers, who do not allow obstacles to get in the way of performing their duties. They do not usually give themselves enough credit for their achievements, seeing their accomplishments simply as the natural fulfillment of their obligations.
ISTJs usually have a great sense of space and function, and artistic appreciation. Their homes are likely to be tastefully furnished and immaculately maintained. They are acutely aware of their senses, and want to be in surroundings which fit their need for structure, order, and beauty.
Under stress, ISTJs may fall into "catastrophe mode", where they see nothing but all of the possibilities of what could go wrong. They will berate themselves for things which they should have done differently, or duties which they failed to perform. They will lose their ability to see things calmly and reasonably, and will depress themselves with their visions of doom.
In general, the ISTJ has a tremendous amount of potential. Capable, logical, reasonable, and effective individuals with a deeply driven desire to promote security and peaceful living, the ISTJ has what it takes to be highly effective at achieving their chosen goals - whatever they may be.

List No 1The careers that, in our research, made most use of ISTJ's preferred function include:

Marketing specialist
Scientist/biologist/physicist/chemist
Librarian
Technical specialist
Forces
Sales
Assistant
List No 2
Careers chosen by those preferring the ISTJ's dominant function (Si) (calculated using "selection ratio")
Careers chosen by those preferring the ISTJ's auxiliary function (Te) (calculated using "selection ratio")
Marketing specialist
Doctor/health care
Business Analyst
Librarian
Artist/actor
Researcher
Entrepreneur/selfemployed
Forces
Careers/occupationaladvice/therapy
Scientist/biologist/physicist/chemist
Homemaker
Administrator
SalesAssistant
Senior Manager
Librarian
Entrepreneur/self-employed
Project managerAccountant/auditor/banker/economist
Forces
Computer specialist
Manager
Clergy/church worker
Administrator
Counsellor
Designer
Doctor/health care Consultant

The jobs/occupations using both dominant and auxiliary functions are:
Doctor/health care
Librarian
Entrepreneur/self-employed
Forces
Administrator

so yeah v interesting i think. yay science and doctor r up there!!!

my baby names!

2009-01-19T00:44:00.000-08:00

i want girl, girl then boy. the oldest girl to b a mini me, the next one exactly a half of moi and husband (and prob half asian, half european) and boy a mini husband.
extra names r inc also. written in order of priority

ashlee jenna (ashlee cuz of a.s and catchy, jenna cuz kewl name i think)
gemma bree (gemma cuz of book junk and nice name and bree cuz of book crank and nice name)
abigail (abbey) heather (abbey cuz cute and heather cuz kno 2 geniuses with similar name)
(jennifer) (from fav book tully and nice name)
hunter seth (both names together from book crank and hot)
tobias (toby) connor (toby cuz cute, connor cuz sounds kinda sophisticated and catchy)
jesse ryan (jesse cuz hot name and from book my sis' keeper, ryan cuz hot name)
(chase) (from book crank and movie and hot name)

level 2 NCEA results

2009-01-14T19:18:00.000-08:00

hey so finally we r relieved of ncea external stress for a wee while!!!

i got same number of e credits as last yr, 97. but last yr internally i got 41 and externally 56 and this yr internally i got 32 and externally 65.

so my level 2 externals:
bio: e in ecology and animal, m in genetics and cells
chem: e in all
eng: m in all (it was crappppp)
french: e in all
maths: m in sequences and e in rest
physics: a in waves and e in rest

so yeah

thank god theyr over...

my 2009 new year's resolutions...

2009-01-02T18:55:00.000-08:00

...r private haha so i dont wanna write them here...
but to sum up:
1. to have the best yr of my lyf so far

dreams...

2008-12-23T13:17:00.000-08:00

haha i had the weeeiiiirrrdest dream last night
something about i was hanging out with my bfs 2 sisters, one quite young with blonde hair and both sooo cute and adorable!!! and i was holding the younger one and lyk playing with both and talking to them and the one i held hit my "upper dodgy part" (the one on the right) and it hurt lyk hell so i exclaimed the girl's name which iv currently forgotten and she laughed cuz she knew it was a dodgy spot lol

i lykd it tho lol i love playing with kids from 3 onwards... any younger and i hav no idea how to handle them cuz they dont talk v well haha

vogueyyyy

2008-12-19T17:34:00.000-08:00

ok getting new glasses ie frames and lenses.
arriving in jan
vogue
black
more "now"

why?

2008-12-18T14:04:00.000-08:00

haha i still dont get the fuss over edward... i think twilight is too young for me, it hardly has any sense of reality which i love and about life... and i need characters who r adults whov lived life and know about it to give me a taste of what i will b like as an adult... and i absolutely love things i am totally passionate about, and the books, movies, music etc i read/watch/listen to that i loovovovveeeee r all things i feel passionately about filled with emotion. with twilight i didnt feel nething. ok lyk it's a good book and all cuz v easy to read and just flip thru the pages, but it didnt make me think or feel anything and i think thats y it's too young for me. i think if i had read it during yr5/6 and cobham i wud really b into it, but way too young for me right now... need adult characters who live lives that ppl in the world right now r living and feel things that i feel.

went for eye test yesterday... right eye is -5 and left -3.5... apparently in the 'moderate' category now, -7+ is severe and apparently i have potential to get to that or worse cuz my dad's -7 i think. so yeah my eyes suck haha...

and pete w apparently spilled heaps on ash and his sex life... and how amazing she is and even their first time having it... ok i think that stuff is a bit too private to share to whole world... ash won't b happy about that, i can guarantee...

so yeah...

xx

sense and sensibility (and no im not plagurising the author)

2008-12-08T14:11:00.000-08:00

ok so lately iv been noticing these main things-meaning iv heard them everyday from various ppl - yes more than one person:
"omo i love edward cullen. hes the BEST... hes so sweet and romantic and wat i need from my (future) bf/husband and y cant ALL they guys in this world b lyk edward!? omo edward ur MINE!!!" lol
"all eyes on me in the centre of the ring just like a circus"
oh and just to throw this in, i found out the other day that volume of a cylinder=volume of a cone+volume of a sphere (if same height of 2r). v weird.
so conclusion: i will (and if i find it hard to i will try vvvvv hard) not fall in love with a 100+ old vampire who is also a book character by remembering that edward belongs to prob (if world is expanding), approx a million other ppl in world (making assumption that there r 9billion humans in earth) cuz about 1/3 of reproductive individuals would b females aged between 10-17 which is the gap of ages that ppl love twilight as their one saviour to getting rid of their boredom which of course is initiated in the realisation that life is boring... but of course, not 1million exactly... more lyk 999,999 cuz of me :) haha
hmm i wish vicki will hurry up and read it for 2nd tym so i can c 'wat the fuss is about' and if i really will fall head over heels with the book and characters, namely edward since im not gay and im not a neanderthal...
if i do become one of the million then i think i do deserve 1/1,000,000th of him hehe even tho that wud mean the ppl that say he's 'mine' now would lose about 1.000001^-12th of him... yes i kno im sad for relating maths and some science to edward cullen but hey, life is equilibrium... unless of course u do english rich things but then they use the equilibrium figured out by others to find out the emotional side of life :)

so im enjoying the days pre convinced that edward is my one and only and that every guy needs to b lyk edward... hopefully these days last for my lyf!

haha wat a weird rant... even i kno its weird

so in the words of britney (keep me quoting this from vicki)
-"life is lyk a mannequin"

signout embarrassment

2008-12-02T15:46:00.000-08:00

ok so i went to signout.
both mr r (physics) and mr g (biology) said that my textbooks r retarded and said that means i used them heaps or something in full hearing range of my last yrs bio and physical sci teachers...
and mr g was lyk how was ur exam?
me: uh ok
him: so ur only gonna get 5 excellences?
me: um haha no dont think so.
him: u cant spend whole hols studying, u need to open the curtains and let the sunlight through cuz u need the vitamin d from it!

and eva heard too just lyk my last yrs bio teacher and she was lyk do all the teachers think u study all hols?

so yes conclusion to a v embarrassing thing: all the teachers (and maybe even peers) think im a major nerd... oh yay... thats my dream... lol jj obviously. it reminded me of when ms r (eng teacher) asked if im studying all weekend and i was lyk no and shes lyk oh good cuz u need some play... sigh lol...

oh and mr w (maths) said that david and i found same paper hard and david apparently said he wudntv gotten e for that paper... thank god im not the only person who found it hard!!!

info

2008-11-05T22:42:00.000-08:00

my top 12 things that make me happy: (cuz 12 is even, divisible by many numbers, is a root and is my lucky number).
1. being different, which also leads onto the idea that im special :) so can do things others cant and also cant do things others can
2. spending time with family, esp the whole entire extended family
3. spending time with my friends!!!
4. making up random things that no one really has thought about, even if it leads onto me being annoying
5. watching movies and reading books and listening to my fav music (pop/rock) and figuring out what the lyrics mean, all three of watching/reading/listening that r 'my type' of texts and that make me feel things
6. thinking about anything. num 6 also includes thinking about good food too, and this is my type of 'good food' ie burgers from bk/mcds, lamb, steak, this special pork thing i like, this special beef thing i lyk from korea, tofu with special sauce, creme brulee, chocolate mousse, kilinchy cookies and cream icecream, big bikkie ice cream, coke as a drink, ice coffee as a drink, hot chips with tomato ketchup, etc... i.e either really expensive dishes that r lyk european meals, or really 'crap' takeaway stuff that r all around the world!!!
7. school (when no exams etc)
8. when my life is happy! ie i have everything i need + extra stuff that sum ppl dont have
9. when i meet sum1 lyk me!!!
10. fulfilling my dreams/wishes and feeling lyk im a part of this world.
11. when the truth comes out ie no fakeness etc
12. travelling around places, seeing how ppl live around the world and meeting nice new ppl from varied backgrounds and discovering new things about anything about human nature/the world ie science, history, literature etc that relates to how humans have acted/r acting at the moment.